Being a Mom
For as hard as my pregnancy’s been on me physically, I have mixed feelings about it coming to an end. On one hand, I can’t wait to meet the girls face-to-face. And I’m sure I’ll feel like super woman once I get my body back. However there’s just something so magical about being pregnant. I’ve been able to spend special alone time with the miracles we created, feeling every stretch and hiccup, talking and reading to them, even playing games with them in the middle of the night. It’s almost time for me to share you girls with the world.
"Making the decision to have a child-it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."
I’m about to start the hardest and most important job I’ll ever have: being a mom. I’m sure I have no idea of the power of the moment when I get to look into their sweet eyes for the first time. I’m already overwhelmed by the love I have for them and my need to protect them, to do whatever is necessary to make sure they’re healthy. Now I have to be strong enough to trust other people to care for them as well. For me, the scariest part of becoming a mom is this new state of vulnerability. I’ll have two beautiful souls to worry about… for the rest of my life.
So, as this pregnancy comes to an end, I look back on how much we’ve already changed. As the births grow near, Heath has softened into a proud papa when he feels the girls rolling around – I can see his heart swell. Our entire focus has slowly shifted from the two of us to our new family. We’ve spent the past nine months preparing for our new lives and how everything will change forever. Now there’s no more time to prepare.
We have a lot of dreams about what kind of parents we hope to be. We want our home to be filled with love, fun and laughter. I’ve learned from my own mom that giving children things was never as important as giving them time and love. With all the things we’re able to provide for our girls that we didn’t have growing up, if I do my job right, they will be appreciative of the life they’ve been given.
I will do everything in my power to nourish, love and protect you both. The time has come for me to share you with the world. I know it will be a better place with you in it! I can’t wait to meet you.